A Decade Ago........

WOW! Over a decade has past and it seems a lifetime too. I loved looking over this blog and smiling at the memories. In the few posts that were posted then, four of our cherished loved ones have passed, including our devoted and much loved father and husband Shawn. He is missed every day. It's the strangest thing to lose a husband and a father. We had plans, lots of them. I don't even know where to tuck those away yet. I never saw myself without Shawn, even though there were many days I may have thought that I could, that can just be marriage sometimes. Shawn passed away at really pivotal moments in our family. The triplets turned double digits exactly 1 month after he passed. Hayden graduated 2 months later and Holden became a teenager. None of these things were supposed to happen without him. We all know bad stories happen, we just never think it will be your story. Well the kids have grown. They seem to be doing well. They miss him. They have to deal with crazy, over stressed mom, but we get by. We have the best friends and community anyone could ask for. If you are reading this blog, then you likely know that I was diagnosed with a large brain tumor a few months after Shawn passed away. After several skull based surgeries (nice talk for brain surgeries) and radiation in Seattle, the kids and I settled in for our new reality once again. We wouldn't have made it through anything without so many wonderful people surrounding us with love and care. The kids and I are now starting a new adventure. We are moving back to Idaho. I say back for me as I was born in Caldwell and Shawn was from Coeur d'Alene so Idaho is strong in our blood. I think resurrecting this blog is my way of healing and dealing with the stress. It wasn't planned. Tonight I found myself a complete mess, once again, as I tried to pack and get ready for the big move. I don't know what triggered it, but something reminded me of this blog (I like to think it was Shawn). I was so happy to see that it still existed and had a wonderful time going through all the memories. Tears, smiles and laughter. We had a great run!